im unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him

i never felt ths way before. i never felt so in love before. i never love someone as mch as i love you. i never felt so disappointed before. i never felt so stressed up before. i never felt so happy before. i never think of someone as much as i do nw. i never willing to do anything to get someone before. i am very shy and ive never been so brave to smile at someone tht i dnt even knw. i dont give a damn abt myself anymore because wht ive been thinking abt is you. youre stuck in my mind and i cnt even get you out of my mind. even ive tried very very hard, youre still there. in my heart and my mind. ive done my best to get yr attention. you noticed me before. but, not anymore. you had stop smiling at me and looking at me. even i stand right under yr nose, i feel as if im not even exist. it hurts. it truly hurts. i feel like crying everyday and wonder why do i hv to meet you at the beginning of ths year? you were standing right in front of the door and you were smiling like you always do. why do i like you so much? because youre different frm any other guys tht ive met before. really different. youre very kind, friendly, love to smile and youre very sweet. i dnt give damn at all abt yr looks. the only thing i wnt frm you is yr heart and a chance. eventhough i dnt really knw you, but everytime i see yr face, i feel as if ive known you fr so many yrs. yr smile really calms me down. yeah i knw. maybe its my fault. ive been so panic everytime i met you. i hv no balls to even look at you and smile at you. maybe you misunderstood. its not tht im ignoring you. its jst tht im too shy. i knw i knw i knw. its my fault. everybody said so. haih. my friends told me to get over him. but i cant. i really really cant. the word 'get over him' really make me upset. very very very upset. and sometimes i feel like crying whenever i see tht word. im stuck now. i wnt to get rid of you. but i cnt. seriously i cant. if i wnt to go on, i'll be a heart broken kid everyday. cry, cry, cry and cry. it hurts. sometimes i jst cnt take it anymore. wht should i do? perhaps i should forget you and move on :( i'll try to get over you eventhough i hv to face the excrushiating pain in my heart. whatever method im gonna use to forget you, im pretty sure tht my feelings towards you will never fade away. but its fading now :( it hurts me so badly :( i'll always always always remember the good sweet old memories of me and you. the first time you said hi to me, the first time i accidently touched yr hand and the first time i smiled at you. it'll always be in my heart. ths is not something which i copy-paste from the internet. but ths came frm the bottom of my heart. im not being lame or extra emotional. but its true. this is the truth. who is he? you'll never knw. and he'll never knw tht what i was talking abt is him. he'll never knw. never never ever. you'll never knw who is he. maybe my close friends do. and whoever he is, the most important thing is, i really really do love him :( you'll be my first and lst true love.




sincerely,
anis zakri

I HATE MY LIFE

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Happy birthday, nurul akmar.

10th March, 2010.

Happy birthday, gila. Yesterday was your 15th birthday. (Sorry, ter-wish salah dlm text) I jst wnt you to knw, even kau gila, kerek nk mati, sengal dan sewaktu dgnnya, aku tetap syg kau. Even kau bt lawak yg aku tak rsa kelakar but rsa nk bg pelempang, slalu destroy moment moment aku tgh hv fun sbb kau kecoh nk balik sbb takut kantoi dgn mak kau, disebabkan oleh otak kau yg slalu ade byk topic yg nk dipercakapkan during our science tuition, Pn Lam slalu marah kt, even kau slalu kerek nk mampus dgn aku dkt MSN, (bukan setakat MSN, but all the time kau slalu kerek), even kau slalu pukul aku dgn tulang kau, aku tetap syg kau. I had so much fun since i met you. And im a very very very lucky person because i hv a friend like you. I knw you're dying to knw wht's your birthday present is, but im so sorry. I cant tell you. You have to wait until this saturday :) Muahahaha. I hope you gonna like it! Plus, kau gila gila lucky takde sape tempek kau semalam. Tp tunggu je laa nnti. evil smile* Plus, aku akn doakan kau akn dpt lens waterproof RM 16,000 kau tuu. And kenama kau. Aku tak sekaya tuu nk belikan kejadah tu sume untuk kau :'( Happy 15th birthday! Again. I hope you'll have another happy 15 years to live for and to fulfill your dreams. I loveeeeeeeeeeee you :) Muahhhhhhhhhhhhh

The PD trip was awesome.

Just got back from PD, two days ago. On sunday night. Me, my parents and my sister went to PD on last saturday. Actually, we supposed to stay there for three days and two nights. But unfortunately, my sister gotto go back to her uni :( But still, the two days were kindda awesome. On sunday afternoon, me and my sister swam in the swimming pool. Gosh, i tell you. Theres plenty of cute guys. Shirtless. wink* Hahaha. Then, we sat by the beach while looking at those people who were on the banana boat, shouting. Hahaa. I have the interest to try, but i dont have the courage. LOL. So, i thought i wanna try to 'berkayak'. But after what my sister said, "how if bende tuu terbalik?". My courage terus *poooof*. Hilang. Hahaha. Before we went back home, we had our dinner at a restaurant called 'Medan Selera Nelayan, Ikan Bakar'. Guess what, we waited for the food for, lemme guess. 3 hours??!! Omg, seriously they were damn freaking slow ! Okay okay, actually we waited for about an hour. But still! Its quite some time! I was like damn pissed off. And i didnt tell you about the price yet, right? The price for the food was RM 60 plus. But the only thing that we ate was ikan bakar, vegetables and soup. Those foods cost RM 60 plus? I think its a bit toooooooooooo expensive. Dah laa their service macam taik, then the price was extremely expensive. So, for those who was thinking to go to PD, DONT you ever go to this restaurant. Trust me, instead of being full, you gonna be very pissed off :)

Help me ! Im in a BIG trouble !!!! Damn laaaaaaa

Shit shit shit shit shit shit. Help me please? Somebody? Damn it. Im dead X(

Awake

Hey, check this out. Can you see that? 'Hayden Christensen'. Hahaha. I just found out about this movie. Tak tau klau aku yg mmg lembab baru tau about this movie -.- Watched it on last two days in Cinemax i guess? Ke HBO? Ntah laa, lupa. I have no idea kenape in this movie i feel like slapping Jessica Alba's face -.- Serious, but no offence. She's DAMN pretty. Especially her hair. Erghhhh, i want her hair! The conclusion is, it's a great movie. You should watch :)

Hot Gimmick

Oh god, im very very very very very very obsessed with this thinggi. Daaaaaaaaaamn. Btw, that dude over there. On that cover, his name is Shinogu. Very very tall Shinogu <3 I hope he is real. Not just an anime :( But still, he's cute ;)

He left us alone, forever.

When i woke up on 25th January, it was 5.52 a.m. I heard my mom cried. I can hear my auntie's voice on the phone. She said "Tan dah takdak" Then, i cant feel sleepy anymore and i cant feel my body aching because of my fever. The only thing that i was thinking of was "Am i dreaming? What did i just heard? Is it true? How can it be? Its impossible. He cant leave me. He's still young. I know he is strong. How can it be? How am i gonna face it later? How am i gonna have a look at his face for the last time? How is it feel during hari raya without hearing his voice and his jokes? Please tell me its not true. Please god. I miss you a lot paksu. I'll remember every single of your jokes that always make me cry. I'll remember all of your funny stories. I remember the way you walk, the way you talk to me as if im your daughter, the way you make us happy and the way you tell me to study hard. You love me since i was a child. You love me like im your daughter. You love us. You were very close to us and i love you so much. Eventhough you were just my uncle, but for me, you were my second dad. You always tease one of us, and make the others laugh. You always brighten up our hari raya with your jokes and stories. Yeah, maybe you have to go because God loves you more. Ive heard about the news that you were admitted in the hospital. But i thought it was nothing serious because my mom said you were getting better. I really really really wanted to visit you. But you know whats the problem. I really miss you paksu. Since the day you passed away, i dont think im enjoying every single of my day. Maybe i need some time to let it go. To accept the true fact. I think my days are getting worst. I feel like there's something missing. But im sure you want us to continue our life. And dont worry to much. You should'nt go so soon. I love you so much paksu. And i love you so much. Al fatihah

I love you so much.

The person who texted me on 22nd January, 2010. 1.32 a.m :) Syggggg sgt.

Kesengalan Norule -.-

NORULE SEXAY LEYDEH says:
anis!
Anis- says:
yes hunnyh
NORULE SEXAY LEYDEH says:
i love you!
Anis- says:
-.-
sumpah takde keje
NORULE SEXAY LEYDEH says:
hahah
Anis- says:
kau buat ape jee?
NORULE SEXAY LEYDEH says:
i love you!
Anis- says:
i love you two three four five six seven eight nine ten
puas?
NORULE SEXAY LEYDEH says:
nope
Anis- writes:
NORULE SEXAY LEYDEH says:
nope
Anis- writes:
NORULE SEXAY LEYDEH writes:
Anis- writes:
Anis- says:
alamak
lupa nk lukis rambut
hahahaha
NORULE SEXAY LEYDEH writes:
NORULE SEXAY LEYDEH winks:
Play "Heart"
NORULE SEXAY LEYDEH says:
dh dh jgn jd terlampau gay
Anis- says:
hahahaha
kau pegi hanta heart beat tuu apehal?
haha
tau laa kau suka sgt science chapter one
NORULE SEXAY LEYDEH says:
bile masa?
Anis- says:
siap hanta heart
-.-
lembab laa kau
NORULE SEXAY LEYDEH says:
oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
Anis- says:
YA ALLAH
NORULE SEXAY LEYDEH says:
asl?
Anis- says:
sje je
　
NORULE SEXAY LEYDEH just sent you a nudge.
　
You have just sent a nudge.
　
Anis- says:
babe
gtg
NORULE SEXAY LEYDEH says:
tanak

Hayden Christensen and David Rice <3

Calm yourself down. I know, he's hot. OMG, you should watch him in the movie called Jumper. His name in that movie is David Rice. Hot hot David :p OH GOD, DAMN HOT ! In that movie, Max Theriot was the young David. Yeah, as all of you know, Max Theriot was my crush too ! Haha. And when he was 5, OMG. That liltle boy was freakingggggggggggggggg cute! The conclusion is, the five years old David Rice, the 15 years old David Rice and the 23 years old David Rice was FREAKING CUTEEEEEEEEEE :) Seriously. If you dont believe my words, then you should watch the movie by yourself. Actually its an old movie. Not 'that' old. I mean it was release a few years ago. I think? Because i remember the first time i watch that movie was last year or last two years in my sister's laptop. When i watched that movie, i was like 'Wtf? He's DAMN CUTE !' Haha. But i was in love with Max Theriot in that moment. HAHA. But now, ofcourse the hot Hayden <3 Whatever it is, to anyone of you that didnt watch this movie yet, DO watch. Then, you'll know what the hell am i talking about right now. Hehe. Okay then. Bye bye.

Hayden Christensen, I loveeeeeeeeeeee you <3