im unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him

i never felt ths way before. i never felt so in love before. i never love someone as mch as i love you. i never felt so disappointed before. i never felt so stressed up before. i never felt so happy before. i never think of someone as much as i do nw. i never willing to do anything to get someone before. i am very shy and ive never been so brave to smile at someone tht i dnt even knw. i dont give a damn abt myself anymore because wht ive been thinking abt is you. youre stuck in my mind and i cnt even get you out of my mind. even ive tried very very hard, youre still there. in my heart and my mind. ive done my best to get yr attention. you noticed me before. but, not anymore. you had stop smiling at me and looking at me. even i stand right under yr nose, i feel as if im not even exist. it hurts. it truly hurts. i feel like crying everyday and wonder why do i hv to meet you at the beginning of ths year? you were standing right in front of the door and you were smiling like you always do. why do i like you so much? because youre different frm any other guys tht ive met before. really different. youre very kind, friendly, love to smile and youre very sweet. i dnt give damn at all abt yr looks. the only thing i wnt frm you is yr heart and a chance. eventhough i dnt really knw you, but everytime i see yr face, i feel as if ive known you fr so many yrs. yr smile really calms me down. yeah i knw. maybe its my fault. ive been so panic everytime i met you. i hv no balls to even look at you and smile at you. maybe you misunderstood. its not tht im ignoring you. its jst tht im too shy. i knw i knw i knw. its my fault. everybody said so. haih. my friends told me to get over him. but i cant. i really really cant. the word 'get over him' really make me upset. very very very upset. and sometimes i feel like crying whenever i see tht word. im stuck now. i wnt to get rid of you. but i cnt. seriously i cant. if i wnt to go on, i'll be a heart broken kid everyday. cry, cry, cry and cry. it hurts. sometimes i jst cnt take it anymore. wht should i do? perhaps i should forget you and move on :( i'll try to get over you eventhough i hv to face the excrushiating pain in my heart. whatever method im gonna use to forget you, im pretty sure tht my feelings towards you will never fade away. but its fading now :( it hurts me so badly :( i'll always always always remember the good sweet old memories of me and you. the first time you said hi to me, the first time i accidently touched yr hand and the first time i smiled at you. it'll always be in my heart. ths is not something which i copy-paste from the internet. but ths came frm the bottom of my heart. im not being lame or extra emotional. but its true. this is the truth. who is he? you'll never knw. and he'll never knw tht what i was talking abt is him. he'll never knw. never never ever. you'll never knw who is he. maybe my close friends do. and whoever he is, the most important thing is, i really really do love him :( you'll be my first and lst true love.




sincerely,
anis zakri